I am heavy with sin and worn out by guilt. I am reminded constantly of my broken spirit. I am reminded of my evil flesh. I am reminded of my mistakes and I am burdened by my shame. There is no relief and there is no hope. I can not see the light and I can not see the finish line. My vision is lost and my head is spinning. Confusion invades my unstable mind. I am lost in chaos, screaming for a chance to breathe. I drown in my misery and lay in my sinful debauchery. The sin is unbearable, the weight is incomprehensible and the pain is intolerable. I can not do this! I am incapable!
My life is a fight. My life is a constant struggle. I hear the doubt penetrate my mind. I feel the hopeless depression pump through my veins. I see the weight of my baggage sag below my eyes. In so many ways my life is an empty pit of darkness. In so many ways I lose hope throughout everyday. So many times I just want to throw it all away.
When these thoughts and feelings attack... When these doubts and confusion collide ... When these difficult struggles break into my life... I hold fast to Truth. I hold fast to Love. I hold fast to Grace and I hold fast to God.
When everything seems to be against me and when everything seems to fall apart I cling to God. He is all I have and He is all I need. He is everything. When I am weary my God says, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest(Matthew 11:28)." When I am doubtful the Bible says, "Be still and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10)." When I am worried God says,"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).'" When I can not fight no more and when I can not even move the Bible says, "For the LORD your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory (Deuteronomy 20:4)." God fights for me. He fights against my enemies. He is Divine and All-Powerful. He is All-Knowing and Compassionate. He is the creator of the Universe. He is the beginning and the end. Everything in this world begins with God and ends with God. God is the only way.
I would be nothing without my Lord. I would be an empty pit of darkness without God's light shining through me. I would be an empty body if my God did not Love me. I am made whole by the wounds of my Lord. I am completely renewed and transformed by the precious blood of Christ. My life has been redeemed and I can be free from all shame by the sacrifice of my Savior. The war has already been won and victory is mine through Christ.
Life is a battle and a struggle between the darkness of sin and the truth of God. I am constantly finding myself in this battle of how I feel and what I know is true. So many times I feel the hopelessness, but in that moment I need to cling to God's truth. I need to hold firm to His word and surrender to His power. So many times I feel alone, but in that second I need to remind myself of God's Holy Spirit that lives within me. So many times I doubt if God is real, but in that state I need to grab hold to God's unfailing love that has changed my life, which proclaims God's very existence.
I struggle and I fall short, but God raises me up. He reminds me of who I really am. I am a child of God. Holy and righteous in His sight. I am a light to the nations and the salt of the earth. I am the result of Love designed to Glorify God in everything I do. To You be the Glory Oh GOD. To you be the Glory. May my life shine a light that can be seen by many. May people see how Extravagant Your Love truly is. May you use me to do Your work and may you bring me to my knees everyday and remind me of Your Grace. You have delivered me from my sins and have redeemed me through Your blood. I am made new by your wounds and complete by Your Spirit. My life has been restored due to the payment of Your Perfect Life. I am Your Child forever and ever.
I am lite with forgiveness and restored by hope. I am reminded constantly of my completed spirit. I am reminded of my new flesh in heaven. I am reminded of God's Grace and I am relieved by God's love. There is peace and there is hope. I can see the light and I can see the finish line. My vision is found and my head is steady. Peace invades my stable mind. I am no longer lost, singing praises to the God of everything. I breathe in new life and lay in God's amazing Grace. The Hope is awesome, the Grace is amazing and the redemption is beautiful. In Christ all things are possible!
