So many times in my life I look back and I wonder, "How did I make it?" I think to myself and ponder all of the scenarios and circumstances and situations in my life where life seemed to be the hardest. I think about all of the times when I felt like I ran into a brick wall. The times when I could not see the light at the end of the tunnel. The times where I felt like I could not make it. These are the moments in my life where I change.
These moments are pivotal and life altering. These moments are the moments that change me. They define me. The reason why is, because in these moments I become nothing and in these moments God becomes everything. In these moments I become defined by God's Grace and God's Mercy. In these moments God places His stamp on my life and seals the deal on my salvation. God points at these moments and shows me that I need Him. It is these moments that scream God's Glory. It is in these moments where I fulfill my purpose. It is in these moments that God is Glorified! It is in these moments where people look at me and see God's Love. It is in these moments that I feel so broken and shattered, but at the same time feel so loved and redeemed. I am so thankful for the moments where I hit rock bottom. I am thankful for the times of struggle, pain and heart break. I am thankful for the hardship and tears. I am thankful, because they transform me into a humble, loving follower of Christ.
God I need your love and mercy today. I need your compassion and Grace. I have fallen so short and you have carried me so far. I am a complete mess. I am a broken piece of art. In time you will make me whole, but I wait in agony. I ask, "Why can't you complete me now?" You answer, "I have started a good work in you and will complete it when my Son returns." Oh how I long for that day. The day where I will be made whole. The day when all my sin and dirt will be gone and I can spend eternity with you. Heal my wounds and piece my brokenness together. Remind me of your Son. Remind me of what He did for me everyday. Preach the Gospel to my heart daily. Help me to rest in your love. Help me to understand that there is nothing I can do to earn your Grace. Help me to understand that I can never be perfect. Help me to see your Truth. My life is a constant struggle and I pray that you will remind me that you have a plan for me. Remind me of you! Remind me of your Promises! Remind me of your covenant! I am tired of living a pointless life that does not shout your name in every aspect! Please let my life scream your Glorious name! Please let my life be a reflection of your unconditional Love and amazing Grace! I want you to be glorified! To you be the Glory and Honor forever and ever! Amen.
