No more wasting. No more sitting. No more nothing. No more letting everything slip. No more free fall. Stand. Grab hold to Truth. Grab hold to what is real!
God is real. His reality is mine. I would have it no other way. If He says I can fly then I will fly. If He says to die then I will die. If He says to go then I will go. No matter the absurdity and no matter the insanity. He is the foundation of logic and the very author of reality. What He says goes no matter what. If He tells the sky to rain gummy bears then the sky will rain gummy bears. If He tells the sea to be still then the sea will be still. If He tells me to go, I say no, I refuse, I resist,I call it ridiculous, I call it insane and I sit and wait for what? nothing...
Absolute nothing waits for me who lays around letting life pass by. My passivity and my rejection of the truth has resulted in pain and hurt. It has left bruises and scars on people's lives that I care so much about. It is the result of someone who has done nothing and I say no more! No more of this laziness. No more of this passivity. No more of the apathy. I care. I care that there are souls that are lost everyday. I care that people are dying daily. I care that there are men and woman sick and broken. I care that there is injustice. I care!
I will go oh God wherever you tell me to go. I will not just go, but I will run. I can not wait for what you have in store for me. I am desperate for your call and I am desperate for your direction. No longer do I want to sit and waste my seconds away. I choose to grab hold to you. I choose to let go of my baggage and cling to you. If the sea can listen and obey then why can't I? If the mountains can move at your command than why can't I move? It is because I do not believe the truth.
I do not believe in who I am. I tell myself daily that I am despicable and worthless. Satan is on my heels to support that accusation. This accusation I do embrace, but I play the ultimate trump when the Judge reads me my sentencing. I accept my shortcomings and mistakes. I accept my failures, insecurity and inabilities, but I cling to Jesus Christ and I shout his name in the court room. The judge hears my plea and he hears my case. "Jesus has paid it all and has washed me as white as snow!", I scream. The judge declares me innocent by the precious blood of Christ.
I am redeemed and I am renewed every single day I wake up. I am a new creation in Christ who has paid it all. I am the beloved, adopted son of God. I have been credited righteousness through the blood of Christ and by His wounds I am healed. No longer do I need to walk in my disgrace. My head is held high with my eyes set on the greater reward. I am loved and I am forgiven. I walk free knowing that all has been restored. There is hope for me and this is what I choose to believe. No more basking in my self pity and my selfishness. I admit to my crimes, but embrace the beautiful sacrifice of Christ.
By His life I can live and walk in faith. By His life I can go and do the work that God has planned for me. By His life I can bring glory to my Father. I have hope in this now and I can not wait to share to the world what God is all about. No more wasting time. No more passivity. No more apathy. It is time for me to live out my life the way God planned. I am tired of letting it all slip by while I sleep. I grab hold to you Oh God. I grab hold to who you are and what you are doing my life. I grab hold to the truth you have revealed to me and I grab hold to the outpouring of grace in my life. I live a life that has been selfish and full of pride. I confess! I confess! I confess! I am yours oh God and yours forever. No one can have me, but you! No one can take me, but you! Take me! Mold me! Love me! I need you now! I need you! I need you! You are all I have! I can never be stolen! You are my reality and I embrace it! No matter what, whatever you say Oh God goes! Your call is the only call!
